Lonely Heart...

It's never been easy being apart. The loneliness is just inescapable... There are times when I feel an ache in my heart, not a metaphoric ache but a real physical ache that leaves me wide awake at night. If only he could lie in my bed and look up at the ceiling, because it's all there, collected in a heavy cloud of worry and lined not with silver but heartache. 

I wonder if these weekend outings and getaways will become more frequent in the future and if they will inevitably invite disaster into our relationship. I just miss him so much...